Are you ready to break free from the prison of unworthiness and to start truly living like a Badass Butterfly? 

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Florence, Italy makes my heart sing. I didn't know anybody here nor did I speak the language when I moved here. But my Soul knew exactly what it was doing when it brought me here. I have awakened!

At your heart is a Badass Butterfly!

My name is Crystal Lynn Bell. I help women break free from their inner prison of unworthiness and become BADASS in their hearts, minds and businesses, using their heart, Soul and intuition as their guide.

Through my coaching programs and courses, I guide them to become Badass by breaking their hearts out of the prison of their mind so that they can access their Soul’s Wisdom without interference from the limiting beliefs, disempowered thoughts and heavy emotions that come from unworthiness.

With your heart and Soul free from the prison of unworthiness, you can pursue your Higher Purpose and create meaningful adventures here on Earth, such as starting a business, writing your book, traveling the world, transforming your body, deepening your connection to Spirit and pursuing your most Badass dreams.

I am the coach who will help you transform and live your most Badass life.

I would LOVE to meet you!  So book yourself in for a complimentary Badass Butterfly Discovery Session to learn more about my philosophy and how you can work with me to awaken your own Badass Butterfly.

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Read on to learn more about my philosophy of unworthiness...

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Let's free your heart from the prison of unworthiness.

There are a lot of us who yearn to be Badass Butterflies but we find ourselves stuck in the cocoon stage of our development. We fight to break free, but for some reason, we can't seem to get out, no matter how much we struggle. Our cocoon has become a prison... a prison of unworthiness.

Unworthiness is a powerful mindset that makes you believe you are somehow limited. It fills your mind with negative thoughts, makes you feel helpless, inadequate and lacking; and most importantly, you make decisions for your life that reflect your inner state of unworthiness.

Jailbreak Your Heart and Howl at the Moon will lovingly guide you through the internal work you MUST do in order to give birth to your inner Badass Butterfly and manifest your heart's desires.

I am inviting you to join me on this profound healing journey that promises to help free your Badass Butterfly from the limiting beliefs, negative thoughts and disempowered emotions that keep it locked in the prison of unworthiness.

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About the Prison of Unworthiness

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Unworthiness is a powerful mindset that makes you believe you are somehow limited.  It fills your mind with negative thoughts, makes you feel helpless, inadequate and lacking; and makes you make decisions for your life that reflect your inner state of unworthiness.

In other words, you believe, think and feel unworthiness-- and then you make decisions that reflect this unworthiness.

And so the three-dimensional world must therefore reflect this unworthiness back to you. The thing to remember is that all of this unworthiness begins in YOUR mind.  So your mind becomes a prison of unworthiness that blocks your Soul’s creative juices.  Your Soul lives in your heart and it is like a Badass Butterfly that wants to spread its magnificent wings and live out it greatest potential.  But if you’ve given your mind over to unworthiness, then you’ve essentially locked away all your power to attract and deliver your Soul’s Higher Purpose.

Every time your unworthy beliefs trigger and you fuel those beliefs by thinking unworthy thoughts, and you start to feel unworthy feelings and emotions which then make you make decisions based on unworthiness, which then lead to taking unworthy actions, you are reinforcing the walls of your heart's prison cell making it harder and harder to express the magnificence of your Badass Butterfly.  Pretty soon, the walls of your prison are so thick that your heart can't do its job of calling in what you want.  And even if it did call in what you want, you wouldn’t even recognize it because you choose to see your life through the eyes of unworthiness.  You’ve given all your power and authority to something that is not true.  So your beautiful Soul, your Badass Butterfly is not the ruler of your life making your decisions, but unworthiness is.

Unworthiness is the warden of your inner prison, but it does not act alone.  It has 12 prison guards that torment your mind and keep your heart trapped.  These 12 prison guards are tough and their methods are cruel, but just like Warden Unworthiness, you make a choice to give your power to these bullies every time you buy into a disempowered belief and thought, and you make a disempowered choice and take a disempowered action.  Unworthy is as unworthy thinks, believes, decides and acts.

The 12 Jailers

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Inner Criticism

These 12 jailers are descendants of unworthiness and they are constantly on duty making sure your heart stays securely locked in this prison. The jailers don't let into your prison cell anything that is valuable to the heart, and nothing that the heart creates can get out.  If you study your life and practice self-awareness, you'll notice that each jailer gives you very clear signals that warn you of their presence.  For example, when the jailer Inner Criticism is on duty, you might notice that you are suffering in a state of indecision as fear of criticism holds you back from taking a risk on your inspiration.  Or perhaps you notice that every time you have to do something that requires you to interact with the authorities (such as filing your taxes, securing official documents, applying for business licenses, trademarking your ideas) you find that the jailer illegitimacy gives you strong resistance and stops you from moving forward.

Your first step is to have the awareness to know what is happening inside your mind and body.  You have to spend regular, consistent time silencing your mind, feeling your feelings and recognizing the mindset you are in.  And this is the root of what Butterfly Badassery is all about:  Having tremendous presence within your being, mastering your emotions and mastering your mind.

In order to do this, you have to stand up to the 12 jailers and take back your authority from unworthiness.

You have to look the jailer, Shame, in the face and not turn away.  You gotta be present with Inadequacy and not hide from it by overcompensating.  You have to confront prison guard Illegitimacy, by confronting those areas where you are out of integrity.  A Badass Butterfly is truly Badass not by her feats of brute strength but by her ability to stand with dignity and integrity in the eye of the storm of challenging circumstances.

To become a Badass Butterfly, you have to stand up to each and every one of unworthiness' henchmen.  Only then can you truly jailbreak your heart from the prison of unworthiness.

"Crystal Lynn has been the reason that my husband and I have the best relationship now after 21 years of marriage and almost 27 years of being together. We are both authentic to ourselves, and in turn have discovered new facets of each other that we find fascinating and inspiring. We have in fact fallen in love again after all this time together." ~Private Client in Houston, Texas

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Let's look at the four walls of the prison of unworthiness.

Limiting Beliefs

Negative Thinking

Disempowered Feelings

Impoverished Decisions

Understandably, most folks are not enjoying the tremendous potential contained in their hearts.  They don't even know that they have Badass Butterfly wings!  They are ignoring the call of their Badass Butterfly and they are avoiding the transformation process. They don't even dare to live their dreams. Feelings of doubt, shame and fear paralyze them and prevent them from receiving all that the Universe wants to send their way. I have found that at their core, these people feel unworthy of the great beauty and success that the Universe is offering.  Unworthiness is a powerful energy that injects itself everywhere in their lives.  At home, in their relationships, in their physical bodies, at their work...Most people are stuck in a prison of unworthiness and it creates an illusion of limitation within themselves and this gets mirrored in the outside world around them.

There are four important things that must change in order to jailbreak your heart from the prison of unworthiness:  limiting beliefs, negative thoughts and disempowered feelings.  Keep reading below to learn more...

Limiting Beliefs

The beliefs that structure our mind are also structuring our three-dimensional reality.  Beliefs that we are somehow unworthy-- that we are not good enough, not smart enough, not thin enough... that ultimately, we are unworthy to have the magnificent dream that lives in our heart.  These beliefs, whether we are conscious of them or not, are driving what we experience and manifest in the world.  Beliefs that deny our Divinity and separate us from prosperity, excellent health, joy and passion, will not let our hearts call into us our most powerful desires.  These beliefs do not let us recognize the abundance of resources around us.  They do not let us believe that our inner light is strong enough to overcome perceived material circumstances.  Beliefs create an illusion of insufficiency, inadequacy and unworthiness in ourselves and this gets reflected in the world around us.  This is an issue of unworthiness that we must transform if we want to become Badass Butterflies.

Negative Thinking

From limiting beliefs come negative thinking.  Your negative thoughts along with the limiting beliefs that drive them shape your attitude and they paint the outside world to look exactly like how you feel and think subconsciously.  My work around this is deep and I am not just taking it on here in my Badass Butterfly Spiritual Life Coaching program. In my soon to be released book entitled, Jailbreak Your Heart and Howl at the Moon, I dive deep to help you confront the 12 vicious prison guards that are keeping your heart in the prison of unworthiness.  These vicious prison guards drive your negative thinking and they keep you feeling small and disempowered.  The key is to remember your Divinity and recognize that these jailers are liars serving an unworthy mindset and to tackle them head-on.  Friend, you are going to jailbreak your heart from the prison of unworthiness.  With my coaching and my book, you are fully locked and loaded to rock your Badass Butterfly Self!

Disempowered Feelings

How can you feel anything but glum inside when you believe you are unworthy and your mind keeps repeating and showing you evidence of your unworthiness in the world around you? Unworthiness is a condition of your mind that colors your beliefs, shapes your thoughts and dictates the actions you take.  Disempowered feelings come from looking around and seeing the outpicturing of your thoughts in the material world.  The world becomes a mirror of your feelings such as grief, mistrust, anger and resentment.  This is the age of the  Law of Attraction.  By this law, what happens inside of us must be reflected in the outside world, and it is perfectly logical that your mind would search for things that it believes, thinks and feels.  So you attract what you believe, think and feel.  The thing is, it's not so easy to simply change what you believe, think and feel.  You have to do some work around these things in order to change them organically and authentically.  I do not believe in putting a Band-Aid on a bullet wound.  I believe in treating emotionally wounding with effective treatments that CURE them.
The cure for emotional wounding is Unconditional Love.  This is not earthly love that ends in divorce and break-ups.  This is not romance.  It is even stronger and more powerful than motherly love.  And it goes waaaaaay beyond brotherly love.  I'm not knocking these!  Hahaha!  I'm just saying that Unconditional Love is beyond category.  It is the power to transform.  And that's what is at the heart of all our work in Badass Butterfly Spiritual Life Coaching.

Impoverished Decisions

When you are in prison, you have a limited perspective.  You can see only what is within your four walls.  You can hear only what rests just outside those walls.  Those four walls become your reality.  The air you breathe is prison air.  The food you get to nourish yourself is prison food.  All of your sensory input is sourced by the prison and the jailers that are keeping you inside.  In the prison of unworthiness, your mind, body and emotions are all subject to fear, shame, ego, limitation, inadequacy, criticism and all the other henchmen.  When you are breathing unworthiness and its jailers are they are feeding you on all levels, body and mind, impoverished decisions can only follow.  Impoverished decisions and poor choices are the logical offspring of limiting beliefs, negative thinking and disempowered feelings.  You can't make the empowered decision to leave your abusive spouse if you believe, think and feel that you won't be safe and can't survive without them.  You can't make the Badass decision to start your own business if you believe, think and feel like you don't have what it takes to thrive it.  By working with yourself on these four levels, you will find that you are primed to take inspired action that leads to success in all your endeavors.  This is the Badass Butterfly way.

Got questions?  I've got answers!  So book yourself in for a complimentary Badass Butterfly Discovery Session to learn more about my philosophy and how you can work with me to jailbreak your heart and awaken your Badass Butterfly.


Your Heart is Badass

It is my belief that the human heart is the source of infinite creativity.  While the brain is undeniably a powerful processor of information, its power to create reality pales in comparison to the electromagnetic power and the natural wisdom of the heart.  The heart is the first organ to develop in an embryo but it is not merely the fuel pump of the body.  The heart has power that extends beyond the physical.  Science has learned that the heart’s magnetism is 5000 times stronger than the brain's and the heart amplifies its electrical charge at more than 60 times that of the brain.

Beloved Butterfly, to THRIVE your life, you must jailbreak your heart from the prison of unworthiness.

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This photo was taken at Ponte Vecchio in Florence, Italy. My heart has blossomed here. Art, culture, romance, nature... a personal Renaissance in Florence.

Are you ready to Jailbreak Your Heart?

A badass heart that glowsHello, Badass-Butterfly-in-Training.

In order to jailbreak your heart from the prison of unworthiness you must change your mindset from unworthiness to Badassery.  You must make a choice to reach for your greatest potential and own it.  You must decide to transform from caterpillar to Badass Butterfly.

The thing is, friend, your mindset is the one thing under your direct control.  You can’t control what other people think, feel or do just like you can’t control the weather.  But you can control what YOU believe, what YOU think, how YOU feel and the decisions YOU make. This is at the essence of the Badass Butterfly.  RESPONSIBILITY.

You have to take responsibility for your unworthy mindset and you have to take responsibility to live your Higher Purpose.

Unworthiness is the source of all the reasons we use to keep ourselves small.  It’s the reason why we stay in situations that don’t inspire us to be our best—whether it’s work, intimacy, health, income or home. Unworthiness is the crutch we use so we don't have to take responsibility to make real our magnificent dreams. 

Essentially, when you let unworthy beliefs rule your mind, you're giving your power to discern and to make choices for yourself to unworthiness.  When you give away your power to something, you become a slave to that thing. You become its prisoner.  So when you believe that you, a Divine expression of Source Energy, are unworthy in any way, you are denying your Divine Birthright and entering into that prison of unworthiness.

This is a Law of Attraction Universe.  What happens in the material world must reflect the mindset we serve.  So in order to have a beautiful Badass life that expresses your greatest potential and that follows your Higher Purpose, you’ve gotta change your mindset from unworthy prisoner to Badass Butterfly.

So now, Dear Badass-Butterfly-in-Training, you know my opinion about unworthiness-- that it keeps us safe and small.  And you've had an introduction to the Jailers of Unworthiness that keep your heart in the prison.  But are you truly ready to do the work necessary to jailbreak your heart?

"Crystal helped me create new more positive mental patterns. She gives me psychological tools that directly alter my old negative thoughts. My completion process sessions with Crystal gave me a new frame of reference -- the negative scenes I used to replay in my mind are completely different now. It's pretty incredible actually. I've spent years in psychotherapy and even became a psych counselor myself. There's only so much you can do with psychotherapy. Once you've kicked around the same old dirt with a therapist you need a spiritual coach to help you harvest new seeds of thought." ~Josephine Bila, writer and founder of

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My Badass Butterfly Tools for Transformation

When you are suffering from the effects of limiting beliefs, negative thinking, disempowered feelings and impoverished decisions, you are in the caterpillar stage of development.  This is not a bad thing!  It is simply a sign that it is time for you to move to the next stage of your evolution.

In Badass Butterfly Coaching we take you through the transformation process with three badass tools which will show you your limiting beliefs, stop your negative thinking and transform your disempowered feelings.  These Badass Tools are Shadow Work, Healing and Light Work.


 The Sun

Butterflies LOVE the Sun.  Badass Butterflies recognize the power that comes from the center of our Universe and use it to guide their healing.  The Sun represents masculine authority which, in the Badass Butterfly, is our outward nature-- our rational, logical, thinking self, as well as the decisions and actions we take in the world.  The Sun's essence is light, optimistic and forward thinking.  We are energetically connected to the Sun through our Solar Plexus Chakra (our inner Sun.)  So we should also understand that the Sun influences our personal will.  This is where our Badassery gets activated.  As the Sun moves through the constellation of stars that make up the zodiac, we will use its energy to destroy unworthiness and its jailers. Don't worry, Precious Badass-Butterfly-in-Training.  You will come to understand this deep spiritual and energetic stuff as we work together.  For now, just understand that just like the Sun provides the light and warmth for Mother Earth to thrive, the Sun is going to feed and nourish your inner being and help your Badass Butterfly awaken.

 The Moon

While the Sun reflects our outward, masculine authority, the Moon reflects our inward, feminine authority.  The Sun is thoughts in action and the Moon is intuition in being.  All our moods, emotions, feelings and impulses are under the direct influence of the Moon.  For the Badass Butterfly, the Moon is our source of inner strength and wisdom.  In Badass Butterfly Spiritual Life Coaching we work with the Moon phases to tackle unworthiness and its jailers from the inside out.  We are going to use our Divine Feminine/Goddess power to break through all the barriers that unworthiness sets up inside us.  We are going to our increase our connection to femininity by empowering our intuition and feeling nature.  So disempowered feelings are naturally replace by empowered ones.  The Moon nourishes our inner world, so we will tune into her energies and make sure that our inner needs are met as we let go of the old caterpillar life and embrace the new Badass Butterfly way.

Shadow Work

Shadow work is a conscious, analytical exploration of your dark self, known as your Shadow.  It is a conscious dive into the negative experiences you've had in the past so that we can shed light on the root cause of your pain. Shadow Work will have you look at your past life experiences with an aim to heal what is active and triggering you in the present.  Your conscious mind loves this Shadow Work process because it helps you feel like you have control of the situation.  This is important because many people don't heal because they don't like to feel out of control.  They want to know exactly what is happening.  The Shadow Work part of Badass Butterfly Coaching is very tangible, practical and thoughtful.  I've designed it this way because the conscious mind doesn't always like to let you feel your pain, but it doesn't mind thinking your pain.  My Shadow Work processes go deep into your psyche to uncover its painful mysteries, but it usually feels very safe for people to do.  It is not a woo-woo, otherworldly experience, so it's easy for people to grasp.


When we find the root causes of your pain with Shadow Work, we apply healing strategies that will help you release the limiting beliefs, transform your negative thinking and literally dissolve your disempowered feelings. Healing comes in many different forms for us and it works with all four of your human dimensions:  your body, your mind, your emotions and your Spirit (energy.) Sometimes I facilitate your healing through your energy field and sometimes you will. I am always teaching you how to heal yourself because Badass Butterflies are their own source of healing.  All the tools, resources and magic rests inside of you already.  My job as your Badass Butterfly Coach is to help you access what's already inside.  Unconditional Love is the force that drives all of the Badass Butterfly Healing techniques.  The more you learn about Unconditional Love and the more you practice it, the more healing you receive and the more healing you spread to the world around you.

 Light Work

It's important to feed yourself proper nutrition every single day.  Likewise, it is important to consciously feed your mind and your Soul every single day.  Energetically, we have momentum that follows our most predominant thoughts, our focus, our feelings and our choice of behaviors.  So with Badass Butterfly Coaching we find natural paths of Light that you can practice every day to raise your vibration and help you build momentum toward your greatest dreams.


So to summarize and recap, we use the Sun and Moon as our protect Spirit Guides for dealing with the Jailers of Unworthiness.  In the Shadow Work module, you spend time observing your inner processes to discover where you are stuck, have limiting beliefs and thought patterns and emotional blockages that cause you to suffer.  By doing Shadow Work and Healing, you will discover that there are parts of yourself that are creative, bold and visionary in ways that you never knew before.  OMG!  You are SO BIG AND BADASS, Beloved!  So MAGNIFICENT!  With Light Work you will begin feeding yourself the energetic nutrition that supports your Light.  This is where you focus on uniting your mind and your emotions so that you can take the inspired action in the world that leads to manifesting your heart's greatest desires.

All of the techniques you learn in Badass Butterfly Coaching will free your heart from the prison of your mind.  You will learn to turn up the volume of your intuition and make choices from your inner navigation system.  You will also bring in new belief systems that empower you and support you as your dreams unfold in your beautiful, Badass world.

I want to invite you to set-up a complimentary consultation with me to discuss your specific issues so that you and I can determine if this program will actually benefit you.  I want you to join me in the healing journey with trust, enthusiasm and a hopeful outlook.  In order for you to get there, you need to know that you can trust me and my guidance.  This complimentary appointment will give us a chance to meet and you can FEEL if working with me is a good fit.  This also gives me an opportunity to discern if working with you is in alignment with my own Spirit.  In order to give you my best, I must KNOW that I can deliver what you need.

If you are aware of the price you're paying by staying in the prison of your mind and you are sick and tired of being sick and tired, then let's get started!  This life-changing program is meant to take you from frustrated and stuck to living the life of the Badass Butterfly-- abundant joy, emotional freedom, passion, optimism and the ability to manifest your heart's desires.


The Program:  Jailbreak Your Heart and Howl at the Moon

Apollo dog with moon and starsThis is an ongoing program that you can join at any time.

My coaching program is designed for those who are ready to take on an intense self-healing journey to confront the 12 Prison Guards of Unworthiness and jailbreak their heart.

As each prison guard is confronted, a pathway of light is opened for the heart to breathe and express the Soul’s Higher Purpose.  As you move through each of the prison guards, more and more light enters your consciousness and your beliefs, thoughts, decisions and actions move from unworthiness to Joy, Power, Peace, Trust and Unconditional Love.   The more work you do, the more Badass you become.

Because the program is designed to heal and repair your mindset on a deep level, we go slowly and we take our time trusting that our Soul and Higher Self are guiding us every step of the way.

Each month, we work with one prisoner of unworthiness.  Our work with each of the jailers is deep and effective.  During the month, we explore the role the jailer plays in our lives. We learn how it has affected us in the past and we study where it is exerting influence in our lives currently.  Then we do a course of shadow work exercises and healing practices to help us confront the jailer and see how it is contributing to our state of unworthiness.  Then we use the positive energy of the month to tune into our heart and see what we desire in our Soul.  This is where we give birth to our Badass Butterfly.  We chip away at the walls of unworthiness by confronting the jailers and we nourish our Badass Butterfly by getting clear about our Higher Purpose.

Process 1 Fearless Self Assessment:  In this exercise, we take a journey through our memories and we observe the jailer as it interacted with us children.  We explore and assess what belief systems it created in us and what thought patterns began in our early years.

Process 2 Limiting Beliefs:  In these exercises, we explore the limiting beliefs that are active in our current adult self and we explore if they are serving us or not.  Those that serve us, we keep.  Those that don’t serve us, we lovingly release and replace with more powerful (yes, Badass) beliefs.

Process 3 Negative Thinking:  This series of exercises and activities will have you become aware of your thoughts and finding any negative patterns that reflect unworthiness and its 12 jailers.  We will get to the root causes that are driving the negative thinking and then we will take a healthy and realistic approach to changing your thoughts.  But don't think that this is just about 'positive thinking.' NO!  We don't just try to pull positive thoughts into the prison of unworthiness.  The jailers won't let us!  Instead, we do our inner work to confront unworthiness and our negative thoughts will move naturally to empowerment.

Process 4 Disempowered Feelings:  The Jailers of Unworthiness cause all sorts of emotional upheaval in us and so to jailbreak your heart, you have to master your emotions.  Also, how you feel is one of the key determiners of what you manifest.  So in this program, we do some powerful exercises to help you feel your feelings and balance your emotions.

Process 5 Impoverished Decisions:  In these exercises, we are going to explore your decisions and find out their true source.  Very often our decisions are made from our subconscious beliefs, thoughts and feelings, which are founded in unworthiness.  The more work we do to understand ourselves wholly in this program the better will be the foundation for our decisions in the future.  In this module we get clear on our motivations and set intentions for empowered decisions… Badass decisions.

In any given month, you will use any of the processes to work with the jailer.  Some months you will use just one process and dive deeply into it.  But others, you might find that you use them all.  For this work, your inner Badass Butterfly is activated and is guiding you to help you set her free.  So rather than trying to force yourself into some rigid program, we let the Badass Butterfly speak her wishes and her needs.  This is really important because in order to defeat unworthiness, you have to forget unworthiness’ voice and start hearing your own true voice.  Your Badass Butterfly speaks a different language than what you’re used to hearing.  Unworthiness speaks the language of anger, criticism, mistrust, doubt, lack control and fear.  Your Badass Butterfly speaks the language of Trust and Surrender.  This language might be foreign to you.  But don’t worry, you’ll learn it.

"Crystal Lynn has a unique way of helping me see the benefit of what I was doing. I had been going through life not really knowing ...or not really aware of how my actions were effecting my world. She validated and pointed out the power of my own intuition. She helped me to understand the deeper meaning behind the things that I did... The Discovery Session was valuable in deed! I remember feeling a huge, “YES” inside... I had so much clarity, as well as a sense of peace.  Since working with Crystal Lynn, I see that I value my intuition more now than ever. I am content with what comes up naturally for me. I enjoy my inner world and I know how to change my outer world." ~Mar'Lyn Bland, Founder and CEO of

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Spiritual. Traveler. Entrepreneurial. Badass.

My name is Crystal Lynn Bell and I am the Badass Butterfly.  I once lived my life as a caterpillar, rambunctiously munching her way through the garden of life.  Let me be honest and straightforward with you.  Mine was not an easy journey.  My mind had my heart locked in a prison of unworthiness and I found myself trying to live creatively but always falling short in my endeavors.  I couldn't follow through with my ideas, I lacked tenacity, focus, clarity and the ability to handle all the small details one needs to make a true success of things.  More than anything though, I was plagued by underlying feelings of inadequacy.  Inside me was a raging unworthiness that clouded every single thing I put my hand to.  I had wonderful dreams in my heart but my successes were plagued by my inner demons that were enemies to my own magnificence.  I could not manifest my heart’s desires because my heart was a prisoner of my mind’s belief in my unworthiness.

Thankfully, I got a big wake-up call from a hard slap in the face.  I had hit rock bottom, friend.  I had no money, no business, no home, no friends, no family and no energy.  And this was NOT the first time I had been in this situation.  I looked at the life I had created and I had no one to blame-- not even myself.    In that moment of deep despair, I had to confront my inner demon of blame and in doing so, I awakened to the responsibility I had to my own right to a magnificent life.  I could no longer allow myself to be a half-assed half woman.  My old unworthy self was dying and something powerful was awakening.  This awakening had me confront unworthiness, not by taking action in the outside world (for example working harder, winning praise and doing good deeds,) but by confronting my own inner demons, like blame, that were holding me in this prison of unworthiness.  These inner demons were like jailers that were blocking the creative power of my heart.  I confronted those aggressive jailers and in doing so, I forged a new relationship with myself and with life.  I found myself becoming Badass.


I started understanding my needs at a deep level and meeting those needs with compassion.  I began to slow down and I stopped trying to force things to happen. I began conversing intensely with my Spiritual Guidance Team and putting my Soul's Agenda ahead of my ego's agenda.  Wow.  Did things ever change!  As soon as I started confronting those angry jailers that were imprisoning my heart, ALL of my relationships improved-- romantic, friendly, family; I restructured my business and it started bringing in consistent, exciting income, my living conditions became magical, I integrated with my community instead of being a satellite outside the community, I lost 15 pounds without dieting or exercise (my eating just shifted on its own) and I found myself surrounded by love everywhere I went.

Butterfly on my handAs I started to confront those jailers that were imprisoning my heart, I was basically standing up to my own inner bully.  We all have an inner bully-- a dominant self that tries to hold us in line to some idea that is not truly natural to us, but that feels natural because we have worn it for so long.  My inner bully was unworthiness.  And it had infiltrated my entire being for so long that I thought it was real.  When the Badass Butterfly inside me awakened, I had to confront all the henchmen of unworthiness before my Badass Butterfly could truly emerge.  Some of the henchmen of unworthiness are blame, fear, shame, inadequacy, criticism, limitation and unwillingess to forgive. There are 12 jailers all together which seems like a lot.  But the fact is that I started feeling much more grounded and powerful the moment I tackled the first one.  It's like by confronting just one of these jailers opened up a pathway so that a branch of my heart could reach out into the world without being hindered.  It started calling in lots of positive energy like hope, inspiration and trust.  As I took on more jailers, more paths of light opened in my heart and pretty soon, I was just glowing.  I couldn't stop smiling.


Badass Butterfly and her dog ApolloAnd now, I am living in Florence, Italy, which is one of my heart's biggest dreams.  I have a beautiful home, my business is thriving, my health is tops and romance is all around me... and I have a dog, Apollo!  He is AWESOME!

Oh!  And I am writing a book called Jailbreak Your Heart and Howl at the Moon.  If you want to be kept abreast of its progress, then please sign up to get updates.  Badass Butterfly has awakened, y'all!  She is alive and well and living her best life in Italy.

I am honored to guide you along the path of your own Butterfly Badassery-- to help you seize your greatest potential and spread your Badass Butterfly wings.


You've got nothing to lose (but a bunch of unworthy baggage!) Book yourself in for a complimentary Badass Butterfly Discovery Session to learn more about my philosophy and how you can work with me to awaken your own Badass Butterfly.


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