Are you giving up on a dream?

When I was 15 years old, I had returned home from a tour of Europe with a heart FULL of joy, proclaiming that I would live there. My dream was to marry a Swiss man, work in Paris and restore a farm house in Tuscany or Provence.

When I turned 19, I was taking French at my local community college and I found a flyer for a tutor. I called the number and arranged my session. On the first day, I happily drove to my new tutor’s house. When he opened the door, I realized I was looking into the eyes of my future husband. He was handsome, sexy, charming, smart as hell, and a curious blend of Italian, Spanish and Swiss. I remember going home after that session and telling my best friend, “He’s going to ask me out the next time I go there. He can’t help himself. We’ll marry.”

Man, that was a magical relationship full of love, passion, romance, travel, dreams of the future and memories worth keeping. I was in full alignment with my heart’s desires.

When I was 27, my husband and I divorced. Something went wrong… Something went wrong with my marriage, but that’s not the problem. The problem is that something went wrong with ME. I went from being in alignment with my heart’s desires to being out of alignment with my heart’s desires.

My next relationship found me dating a man who was handsome and sexy, but a cheater and addict. He wanted nothing to do with Europe or farmhouses. But he was handsome and sexy and I was charmed by that.

During that relationship, I totally forgot my Self– my dreams, my desires… my heartsong. When my new guy said that he couldn’t live in Europe because he was a teacher and had to stay in Los Angeles. The thing is, he wasn’t even teaching because he didn’t like being in the classroom. He got an administrative job that let him take off several hours a week to golf! I gave away my dream of creativity and passion for a life of settling, convenience and golf widowhood.

What was that????? How could I shift so easily from alignment to distraction???

The answer is very simple: I didn’t know any better. I thought that I had to listen to the people who were ‘wiser’ than me; and I thought that I had to do what my friends were doing. Everybody was trying to settle down and get a rhythm and build what we thought was the American Dream.

I didn’t know what I didn’t know… but I thank God/Goddess/Source of All that I had that spark of insight that told me to get up and get the fuck out of Dodge. Seriously. I learned that my boyfriend had been cheating on me every day of our relationship and then I realized that I have two choices: give up or come up swinging.

I chose to fight for my Self. I chose to fight for my heart.

I asked myself, “What do you really want? If you could have anything you want, what would it be?” I closed my eyes and the thing that popped into my head was the Eiffel Tower. It felt right and exciting. It felt big and adventurous. It felt YES. In that moment, I decided that if my life is not worth living if I can’t honor what matters most to me– my heart’s desire.

Two weeks later, I was enrolled in a two year program in Paris, France. I packed my bags, sold my car and was living there in a BEAUTIFUL apartment about a block from the River Seine. When I left the US, I weighed 180 pounds. When I returned home after five months for a brief break, I was weighing 140 pounds. That alone was a powerful affirmation of my well-being. My love affair with Europe has only blossomed in the past decade and today, I find myself making plans for my farm house.

So why am I sharing this with you?

Well, because there’s a chance that you might be suppressing a dream that can still be resuscitated and realized. I don’t know what’s inside of you! The problem is that you might not know either! So often, we suppress our dreams or we dissect them and alter them with fear, limitation, and FEAR… we can’t even recognize or even remember that we even once dreamed…

That’s where I come in! I’m a Dream Emergency Worker! Hahahaha! I get to help you awaken to your dreams and I get to help you plan them and then give birth to them. I get to help you realize your dream. Ha! This is my dream! To be wonderfully AWESOME at what I do– and I am!

Maybe I can inspire you to breathe life into your dream.

I have to admit that I’m pretty excited! I just LOVE the flow of creative energy that flows between my clients and me during our sessions. It is really uplifting!

Keep in mind that I am available for private one-on-one coaching, as well as, group coaching. I am really excited to be starting a new group in the next few weeks with FANTASTIC women! Private coaching is great if you want to focus in on yourself fully or if you tend to be rather shy; but groups are great if you enjoy an open dialogue and sharing your experience with others.

Feel free to email me at CrystalLynn@Spiritcentric or call me at 310-439-8749 if you have any questions about my coaching sessions or programs. You can also book yourself in for a complimentary Discovery Session to talk to me personally about your dreams, desires and how to achieve them.


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